成长

随着年龄的增长，
我们渴望的事情多了，
烦恼也渐渐多了，
因为我们总是太多选择…

长大了的自己，
对某些事情的渴望大了，
因为我从未对人心动，
也不曾为任何人打开心胸…

我就只会逃避事情，
提及爱情我就回避一切，
但哪天有谁动了自己的心，
也许那就是新生活的开始吧？

我很幸运因为我从小别人疼，
我鲜少独自一人解决事情，
就因如此天待人公平，
没有爱情却有友情…

依赖性强的我也许没资格爱，
因为我还没能力保护另一半，
虽然外在看起来坚强，
其实我内心是很脆弱…

曾几何时，
我不爱对人说心事，
因为越大的自己越复杂了，
有很多无法被原谅的事情…

但是我坚信雨后肯定会出现彩虹，
人生也会有我当主角的一天…

Love

I thought my life was going happy,
But i just realize that i have made a wrong choice,
Cause maybe it's the beginning of something,
And it may harm me from something.

When you love someone,
You will give up when she/he got another love,
But sometimes we will interrupted the relationship,
And this complicated relationship may occur.

People like you to show that how much you love her/him,
And i have receive a funny answer,
It was:I love you as you love me,
I need you as you need me.(What the?)
But i think this is the best answer forever.

Human always do a wrong choice,
And sometimes not apologize can ended up the problem,
Just like you accept a wrong relationship,
And you have no idea to break up with her/him.

Anyway,I fear from love,
I hope it won't always messing up my feeling,
My teenage dream is still available,
So sometimes i still look childish. xD

when...

Did you felt stress before?
Isn't it quite painful for us?
When we are having stress,
Will you had negative thinking?

Women like to cry when she felt stress,
Men like to drunk for calming his feeling.
Of course we are not longer in stress,
But all people have to experience this.

Sometimes,
We felt sad or had down mood for unreason,
Isn't it the environmental brought us the stress?
We always find happiness as a reason to move on.

Love is a poison that lose our mind,
Did you mad cause of love?
Human like to pretend their feeling,
And it causes us to lose the chance we love.

Not everybody have a happy ending on their life,
Not everybody know how to manage a family,
Not everybody have a creative minded,
Not everybody know that how to love.

My life full of imagination,
I never take effort for my relationship,
I don't know how to manage my relationship,
And i always ruin my relationship.

We are growing due to the time,
We are not younger than before,
And soon we will be parents,
And soon we have to fight for destiny.

We still have many challenging are waiting for us,
And we need to personal growth to fight through,
And soon we need to be more mature,
And protect our children and family.

i'm just talking some craps

on the new generation now,
we are free to do what we wanna be,
cause we are not tradition like last time,
come on!it's 21 century now!

maybe some people will disagree my opinion,
and they will refute what i'm saying,
whatever,i just like the way i live through,
because i was born this way!

rumors always besides us,
and it's due to the majority of social network,
we knew too much information on website,
do you agree that?

it's giving me a chance,
to know more the culture of other country,
and we can be more open,
in many of field in this century.

did the network interrupted our thinking?
on my opinion,my answer was yeah!!
it makes many peoples prematurity now,
and i think we need more educate about sex.

i think the sex issue wasn't a problem in Malaysia,
the percentage of pregnant at teenager,
is higher at western countries,
i think we really need more educates about that.

of course,i seems that,
some countries are legally on homosexual,
but you know what?
who cares that you are homosexual,straight,bisexual or otherwise,
we just be myself,don't feel ashamed.

"bitch" this word was rude,
but if you are,so what?
if you enjoyed one night stand or sex party,
you just do it.

that's all what i want to say,
i think it's too over for someone,
i apologize here if i violate some people,
i hope you all will like my blog.

special!!!

i am a BETRAYER!!!
will i going to betray God?
oops!!that's a serious thing,
i think i can't do it.

i like evil this few days,
because vampire is an evil,
they suck people blood for life,
can i drunk blood like vampire?

mood swing occurred this few days,
i can't really calm me down,
when i think about car test,
my mind will ask me think about another thing.

i can't control it sometimes,
i'm sad i'm afraid,
i'm overthinking and having depression now,
sometimes i hope myself rest in peace.

lady gaga song was my reminder,
she reminds me must sustain until the end,
she reminds me must do it for myself,
we are special if you live out yourself.

mother gaga was born in this way,
she lives in a complicated life,
but that's what she born,
she was born this way.

hurting myself wasn't a good idea,
i think living out myself was a good idea,
we never know what will happened at future,
let's we make a different for future.

i'm a fool,
sometimes i know that i'm are not suppose to do,
but i'm still doing that,
that's what am i.

because of that,
i am SPECIAL...



the journey still far away from me,
let's we make it easy.