what i suppose to do?wasting my time...

i'm in the bad mood now,
caused of someone,
who was so realism and asocial...

got some idiot people tell me,
i'm form 5 already,
why i always want go for finding the sponsor?
i tell him then i also don't want go out anymore,
but the president of this activity,
see me by using their coldly eye...

i think it for a long time,
why "x" can don't want go out,
then why i must go out?
that's not fair to me....

the reason is
i'm like an idiot and stupid?
i got the responsibility?
i must take it as my duty?
or do you think i'm your dog?
but i don't think so....

i'm very angry somebody,
he evade his duty by using "lazy" this word,
i'm really hate someone like this,
although he is my best friend...

what the fxxx,
if like that,
why i'm so worried about the thing?
i also can choosing don't want think this,
and to concentrate at my school work...

i'm also no enough energy to do it,
because you all think,
got me all will be fine?
that's what are you thinking...

but you all also don't know,
my ability got a limit one,
so i can't cover it at all...

someone please don't want like that,
i hope we all can work together,
to settle the question we face now...
don't let me like a stupid by doing something,
something useless in you all though...

the message to my dear oc friend....

in my life,
experience many miracle,
feel so miracle now,
and the most miracle is,
i'm using English to write my blog now...

i think many people will know,
i'm a noober in English language,
so i try to improve my English,
by using English writing my blog....

but early few month,
you all will feel suffering,
but i will try my hard,
to ameliorate the problem....

i hope the people who see my blog,
please help me correct my grammar,
if you see exist problem at here,
i will very thankful to you all....

okay...go to the main point....
today i'm completely leave off one's post,
the feeling i also don't know how to describe,
just now feel sadness and blankness....

the sad thing is,
i will be off soon,
my ochestra till the end soon,
just will leave the sweet memorizes,
the memorizes we cheer together..

the time like a wind,
it waves to our life,
and go away from us,
and won't come again....

i will remember,
the life we all cheer together,
the life we all sit together and make joke,
the life we all bicker....

the life won't repeat again,
but i will it as my sweet memorizes,
because of your,
my life become more funny and prefect...

一切都太迟了

也许是我太贪心了，
我不想放弃身边的其中一个，
结果我做了个错的决定，
现在的我真的是名利双失。。。

曾经我一个一直爱护的朋友，
因为自己做了个很愚蠢的行为，
我以不再是他那个好朋友，
也是他心中所恨的那个人。。。

我现在不期望求得他的原谅，
我只能期望他继续的生气我，
因为我知道因为我一时做错的决定，
让他痛苦了一声也让他永远的恨我。。。

你那种冷淡对待我的态度，
让我真的觉得很心寒和空虚，
我真的真的很不想失去你，
难道我们5年的感情就这样玩完了吗？
你真的一点舍不得也没有吗？

我真的知道错了，
但我却知道你不会原谅我，
我只能跟你说我真的很惭愧，
我没有希望你能原谅我，
我只是想告诉你就是因为不想失去你，
我才做了这些有的没有的东西。。。

忽然发觉，
感情的东西真的很经不起考验。。。