Lost

I'm not a sucker,
I just...lost

I told myself,
I have tried to pretend nothing,
But isn't still okay to me?

I always the only one unnecessary,
I tried to deny,
But I saw it obviously,
Well,contradiction occurred.

Everybody have their friends,
And I do,
But I'm not really the necessary,
I make so much troubles!

I asked myself:"Don't you happy?"
I don't really answer yes nor no.
Maybe that's life.

Why "you" are coming back?
"You" just make me feel bad,
"You" destroying my mood,
I shall keep "you" down but I don't.

Seriously,I don't really know,
What am I worrying about?
What's the one that I go through?

Dear,I lost.