Dear You

You drive me crazy with your indifferent,

I go mad because of how I fall for you,

I get jealous when you so good with someone but not me,

I cry without tears and shout without voice.

I used up my whole attitude to be your friend,

Without any humiliation,sanctity and even my limitation.

I have a "3 minutes" of bad attitude,

But you're like a miracle that totally break this rule.

My vision getting blur when I think about you,

My fall everytime even you only say a "Hi",

Your smile can even keep my smile for whole day,

You don't even know your message can even make my day.

I'm fucking tired for being so care about your life,

I hate how I used to be missing you every night,

I hate how you ruin my schedule with only a word,

I hate how you treat me so well and nothing for the next second.

I fail to tell you that I love you,

I still keep and hold on your love,

Even though I know you will never ever love me back,

The feeling is so strange to me.

The worst thing ever is when I pretend like nothing,

I'm like a very strong people in front of you,

You never see how lonely I am,

Because you are the one that make me not alone.

Can't you just give me a little bit of love?

I'm not that greedy that I want all of your love,

But at least just give me some attention please.

I love you more than what I love myself now. =(

I'm so confusing when I said I wanna letting go,

But I never let you go because I can't do that,

You're so mean like how you treat me,

I hate how you influence my mood!

Dear God,I need you.I'm so in love with that person.

Can you give me a hint whether should I continue to love?

I'm....just fucked up myself! =(

Confession of broken heart

Today might be a very sad day for me,
Because this is my last schooling day with friends.
I'm so sad when I think about them,
But we still have to move on!

I'm so sad when we're talking about the first met,
How we get used to know each other,
Hugging each other made me so brokenhearted,
I'm love them so so so so so so much!

They are the one who gave me a lot of memories,
We used to watch the procession under the rain,
We used to laugh on each other,
We used to mock each other with our words.
We used to sing together,
We used to playing around the class each other,
We used to solve question together,
We used to sleep at class together,
We used to gossip together,
We used to have the party every celebration,
We used to eat at class,
We used to listen song at class
We used to....

And it gonna be my own memories,
We'll going to different country,place and future,
But I'm still not letting go yet,
I'm like crying when I think about them every single moment.

My friend cried and don't losing us,
We are not prepared to face the world yet,
Please,I beg to the God,
Please give us more time to be together.

I don't what will be going on my next life,
Because I though it would be a sweet memory ever in secondary,
But still my friends just broke it,
And taught me what's the real friendship!

They taught me not to be pessimist,
They taught me how to handle my own depression,
We shared secrets each other,
They taught me how to face the world,
They taught me how to love a person,
They taught me how to be kind,
And taught me how to be mature,
Seriously,I don't wanna lose them!

Friends,don't leave me alone,
I don't know what's the future,
But at least,I got an awesome "present",
This is the best thing ever I had.

Love you guys!

We joy while we are together,

We sad due to the bad result,

We love and care each other,

We used to eat during the lesson.

We enjoyed about one and half year,

And still,we reach the time...

That we have to say goodbye to each other.

And now,we have no much time to be together.

Seriously,I've been sad when I think about this,

They taught me a lot of things that I never learn,

I learned to be strong,rational and mature,

I learned to appreciate and love my friendship.

It's all turning back now,

We're back to the beginning again.

I hold on my tears when I feel like leaving,

Because I prefer smile to say goodbye! :)

I gotta have a new life in Genting,

Never know what's the new thing will be discover,

I have no dare to say I miss you,

I'm not a coward but just to be more strong in front them.

I love you,my friends,

I don't know whether how you think about me,

But I have to say that I really love you all,

It gonna be a hard time for me to get a new start again.

Few more days that I'll be with my friends,

After that we have no more class together,

But I have to say that,

My class is a really awesome class!

I gonna miss how I disturb my deskmate during lesson,

He'll do nothing and feel speechless for my action,

He always responeless only for me,bad guy!

Anyway,I gonna miss him soon.

I gonna miss how the other deskmate keep shooting us,

He's just like a machine gun,

Keep shooting everyone in class but I have to say that,

He is a very kind and nice person and I gonna miss him soon,

I gonna miss how I used to sing with my old deskmate,

Our first met in office and she's just a very passionate girl,

She doesn't know Chinese but she can speak Chinese well,

Damn,she is a very funny girl and I gonna miss,

How she laughs,smiles and sings.

Bieber's gf,my first thought that she'll be a fierce girl,

But I never know that she is really a sweet girl,

Who always feel so shy but she's a crazy girl,

I gonna miss how she laughs as well and her epic serious face.

There have so much memories in PU2-MT,

I really can't stand when I think that I gonna lose them,

We form a big family,a link and heart-to-heart.

I love you all,goodbye! :(

Life

It's quite been a long time that I never renew my blogger,

Anyway,I've been for so much things for this few months.

STPM is a very difficult task for me to go through now,

And many unexpected things have been happened this year.

I used to live with my smile,

I used to play with my heart,

I used to learn how to love,

I used to learn how to be perfect.

Life is always an empty books,

We fulfilled the books with experience,

We learn and record all the memories,

Don't you remember the first time ever you saw your crush?

Time killer have been always around us,

He killed almost all the times without noticing,

We grow old without notice out and

We are getting mature without anyone to teach you.

Life is always a miserable for us to go through,

And life is a wonderful things if you enjoy it.

The days when we grow up,we learned how to love.

To give love,give your appreciation and your happiness.

The first time ever you see someone you like,

You feel your heartbeat was so amazing,

You talk to him/her with difficulty breathing,

And you become more polite in front him/her.

We get to know each other and we are friend,

You give him/her as a friend but sometimes not the same for him/her.

And you become more greedy to get the love,

The love he/she might not give you.

You keep it as a friend and keep this secret,

Cause you never know whether is she/he likes you,

And what we have done are just simply like her/him,

Cause you know you don't want to ruin the friendship.

I'm back

Hello blogger,

Pardon me for leaving for so long,

And now I'll be here again,

To share all my feeling to all.

Many people think that I'm a pessimist,

Alright,I admit that I was not for now,

But at the past maybe I was,

But no one born with perfect right?

I get all things that I wanted for,

I have all the friendships and family loves,

Even thought a stranger can treat me well,

Unfortunately that I never found my love.

Isn't it so difficult to discover your true loves?

They said I got the loves but I don't want to accept.

Same question:Would you accept someone you don't really obsessed with?

Anyway,satisfying or satisfied to my life?Idk!

The day once you broke my heart,
I will never be same like before,
The days you tear me down,
I had changed to be a strong man.

You just have nothing to me anymore,
Darn the stupidness I have done to you,
But now we're no more any relation,
Don't think you can tear me down again!

Now I stand on the skyscraper,
You can't take anything from me anymore,
Don't trying to break me again,
Cause I'm strong enough to stand on the top!

Trying to be outstanding and brave,
But just realized that not anyone will like your special,
Run on the road that have been taken,
To find a place to take a small rest.

Lonely isn't for a people who hasn't a lover,
It defines as nothing to do with anyone,
When we get bored,we easily feel lonely,
And you will just start thinking something creepy!

Letting go someone who doesn't love you anymore,
Because it's not worth for you to love someone who doesn't love you,
Love the one who loves you,
There have no fairytale or miracle in love.

Deal with yourself

Have been experienced lot of things,
Things that wouldn't know by anyone,
Sometimes I just wish life will be going smooth,
But sometimes I'm just too innocent to think.

Are you single now?
Know what?I always on this situation.
Seriously I did longing to some kind of love,
It doesn't need to be romantic and beautiful but simple.

Are you okay?
I've been suffocated in this question!
It's not for me but for you,
But I know it wouldn't be like before.

People who're trying to forget always be the one,
The one who never forget easily,
We can take it as a dream,
Why people just did it at difficult way?

Trying to be busy to remind me that I'm still alive,
Trying to be socialist to remind me that I'm always be fine,
Pretending that we are stranger,
Like you never come into my life.

I've been said that "I'm letting go" for many times,
But how difficulty to let something go?
But now I'm wide awake,
I clearly know that what should I do now!

God knows that what I'm paying for,
I don't really need to tell people what am I doing,
Because I know I have the right,
The right to stand out from falling down AGAIN.