Letter for God

Dear God,I was a little confusing now,
I wish someone could help me go through this,
I totally mess up the beautiful of the friendship,
Due to my overthinking,desire and sensitive humanity!

I don't know what to do,
And I don't know how to solve the problem,
I'm alone with my own arms and strength,
Haiz,can anyone teach me what to do?

Life is cruel huh?
Sometimes you must grow up yourself,
In a very tough and difficult situation,
And there's no one going to help you up.

God,how suffering I am,you know that?
I feel like almost kill myself with all the problem,
And I'm the only one who could help me to overcome this,
So I must calm down and take some music!

Oh damn,I really feel so frustrated with all this things,
And I believe my friends might think I'm very annoying now.
Time goes days end,
I just really don't know what to do now?

Genting,parents,friends and relationship,
And the problem just happening again and again,
God,please look up for me,
Bless me everything will be fine.

Hey hater! :)

I was a little angry and sad tonight,
Just because I saw something happened,
And it exactly happened as what I expected,
Alright,thanks for ruining my mood kid!

I admit that sometimes I was a little ego and selfish,
If you really cannot accept the so called me,
You can just ignore me like man,
Don't like a coward who's wearing your damn fake mask,
Acting like a really kind man and you know what?
You are really disgusting you damn crocodile face!

Screw you,I don't actually like to hate my friend,
Unless you really make something that really blow me up,
You are extraordinary huh?
You can really beat my so called alien higher EQ,congratz!

Guess what?I never truly believe you again,
Since the day you are being so annoying to me,
And still being like an angel in front my friend,ewww~
Don't worry you little kitty,I'll never say it out,
I'll let them figure it themselves.

One day,your personality and attitude will shown up,
Because you are dealing with someone wrong,
Know what?I'm actually good in exposed people,
And I'll make sure you will be the same as the other.

I'm an evil right?
If you said that,what are they?
They are even like a monster,
Which can hide themselves like a kind people,
And actually being so annoying after them.

Well,good luck for you.
And I gonna say:Fuck you!

Letting go,the last thing suppose to do?

I know I'm actually like an idiot,
I'm just like an idiot,
Keep searching your past,
For just wanted to understand you more.

Is that really "nice guy end up at last"?
That's such a good theory to investigate for.
Seriously,I just don't feel right.
I just hate being so invisible in front of you.

Am I really nothing worth for you at all?
Even friendship also is nothing for you?
What do you want from me?
I don't really know how to fix this shit!

Is that really if we try,try and try...
We gonna success at the last?
Is that really just a matter of time?
What if we never met before?
Then everything will be as usual as before.

I'm laughing cause I really like an idiot,
Did so much idiot thingy in front of you,
You happy right?See me being so crazy.
Fun right?Kill myself to make you smile.

I actually believe in miracle,
I actually met miracle at last ALWAYS,
But you are just the one that I don't feel like...
Every miracle will be happening on us...

Letting go,is that really the thing I supposed to do?
No please,I've been tried,
But I just never success. :'(

Internet is something very realistic,
We heart talk without a real name,
We pretend everything with a real name,
This is something always happening on us.

I'm so sorry that I loved you

Are you just kidding me?
I laughed and mocked to myself.
Seriously?Had mood swing because of a dream?
I just realized that how much you can influence me.

So happy that you've been in my dream,
We're chatting and enjoying the time,
You're still like the past,so beautiful and charming,
And the dream was so surreal,
I can't actually move out from that dream.

When I was actually woke up that time,
Damn,I'm starting to miss the one..
The one that I said I will letting go.
And the truth that,you'll never ever love me back.

I don't know what should I do now?
Because I can't even maintain our friendship,
I thought I was the one you already accepted in,
But I just realized that you never...
I'm nothing mean to you at ALL!

I don't know,I can't think further,
I've no dare to think more as well,
Because I'm afraid that I can't handle it,
I'm not a man,I'm just a BOY!

God,I'm so tired,
Why I don't deserve anyone?
What's going on to me?
What should I do to make myself become someone..
Someone who deserve to be loved?

Dear You

You drive me crazy with your indifferent,

I go mad because of how I fall for you,

I get jealous when you so good with someone but not me,

I cry without tears and shout without voice.

I used up my whole attitude to be your friend,

Without any humiliation,sanctity and even my limitation.

I have a "3 minutes" of bad attitude,

But you're like a miracle that totally break this rule.

My vision getting blur when I think about you,

My fall everytime even you only say a "Hi",

Your smile can even keep my smile for whole day,

You don't even know your message can even make my day.

I'm fucking tired for being so care about your life,

I hate how I used to be missing you every night,

I hate how you ruin my schedule with only a word,

I hate how you treat me so well and nothing for the next second.

I fail to tell you that I love you,

I still keep and hold on your love,

Even though I know you will never ever love me back,

The feeling is so strange to me.

The worst thing ever is when I pretend like nothing,

I'm like a very strong people in front of you,

You never see how lonely I am,

Because you are the one that make me not alone.

Can't you just give me a little bit of love?

I'm not that greedy that I want all of your love,

But at least just give me some attention please.

I love you more than what I love myself now. =(

I'm so confusing when I said I wanna letting go,

But I never let you go because I can't do that,

You're so mean like how you treat me,

I hate how you influence my mood!

Dear God,I need you.I'm so in love with that person.

Can you give me a hint whether should I continue to love?

I'm....just fucked up myself! =(

Confession of broken heart

Today might be a very sad day for me,
Because this is my last schooling day with friends.
I'm so sad when I think about them,
But we still have to move on!

I'm so sad when we're talking about the first met,
How we get used to know each other,
Hugging each other made me so brokenhearted,
I'm love them so so so so so so much!

They are the one who gave me a lot of memories,
We used to watch the procession under the rain,
We used to laugh on each other,
We used to mock each other with our words.
We used to sing together,
We used to playing around the class each other,
We used to solve question together,
We used to sleep at class together,
We used to gossip together,
We used to have the party every celebration,
We used to eat at class,
We used to listen song at class
We used to....

And it gonna be my own memories,
We'll going to different country,place and future,
But I'm still not letting go yet,
I'm like crying when I think about them every single moment.

My friend cried and don't losing us,
We are not prepared to face the world yet,
Please,I beg to the God,
Please give us more time to be together.

I don't what will be going on my next life,
Because I though it would be a sweet memory ever in secondary,
But still my friends just broke it,
And taught me what's the real friendship!

They taught me not to be pessimist,
They taught me how to handle my own depression,
We shared secrets each other,
They taught me how to face the world,
They taught me how to love a person,
They taught me how to be kind,
And taught me how to be mature,
Seriously,I don't wanna lose them!

Friends,don't leave me alone,
I don't know what's the future,
But at least,I got an awesome "present",
This is the best thing ever I had.

Love you guys!

We joy while we are together,

We sad due to the bad result,

We love and care each other,

We used to eat during the lesson.

We enjoyed about one and half year,

And still,we reach the time...

That we have to say goodbye to each other.

And now,we have no much time to be together.

Seriously,I've been sad when I think about this,

They taught me a lot of things that I never learn,

I learned to be strong,rational and mature,

I learned to appreciate and love my friendship.

It's all turning back now,

We're back to the beginning again.

I hold on my tears when I feel like leaving,

Because I prefer smile to say goodbye! :)

I gotta have a new life in Genting,

Never know what's the new thing will be discover,

I have no dare to say I miss you,

I'm not a coward but just to be more strong in front them.

I love you,my friends,

I don't know whether how you think about me,

But I have to say that I really love you all,

It gonna be a hard time for me to get a new start again.

Few more days that I'll be with my friends,

After that we have no more class together,

But I have to say that,

My class is a really awesome class!

I gonna miss how I disturb my deskmate during lesson,

He'll do nothing and feel speechless for my action,

He always responeless only for me,bad guy!

Anyway,I gonna miss him soon.

I gonna miss how the other deskmate keep shooting us,

He's just like a machine gun,

Keep shooting everyone in class but I have to say that,

He is a very kind and nice person and I gonna miss him soon,

I gonna miss how I used to sing with my old deskmate,

Our first met in office and she's just a very passionate girl,

She doesn't know Chinese but she can speak Chinese well,

Damn,she is a very funny girl and I gonna miss,

How she laughs,smiles and sings.

Bieber's gf,my first thought that she'll be a fierce girl,

But I never know that she is really a sweet girl,

Who always feel so shy but she's a crazy girl,

I gonna miss how she laughs as well and her epic serious face.

There have so much memories in PU2-MT,

I really can't stand when I think that I gonna lose them,

We form a big family,a link and heart-to-heart.

I love you all,goodbye! :(

Life

It's quite been a long time that I never renew my blogger,

Anyway,I've been for so much things for this few months.

STPM is a very difficult task for me to go through now,

And many unexpected things have been happened this year.

I used to live with my smile,

I used to play with my heart,

I used to learn how to love,

I used to learn how to be perfect.

Life is always an empty books,

We fulfilled the books with experience,

We learn and record all the memories,

Don't you remember the first time ever you saw your crush?

Time killer have been always around us,

He killed almost all the times without noticing,

We grow old without notice out and

We are getting mature without anyone to teach you.

Life is always a miserable for us to go through,

And life is a wonderful things if you enjoy it.

The days when we grow up,we learned how to love.

To give love,give your appreciation and your happiness.

The first time ever you see someone you like,

You feel your heartbeat was so amazing,

You talk to him/her with difficulty breathing,

And you become more polite in front him/her.

We get to know each other and we are friend,

You give him/her as a friend but sometimes not the same for him/her.

And you become more greedy to get the love,

The love he/she might not give you.

You keep it as a friend and keep this secret,

Cause you never know whether is she/he likes you,

And what we have done are just simply like her/him,

Cause you know you don't want to ruin the friendship.

I'm back

Hello blogger,

Pardon me for leaving for so long,

And now I'll be here again,

To share all my feeling to all.

Many people think that I'm a pessimist,

Alright,I admit that I was not for now,

But at the past maybe I was,

But no one born with perfect right?

I get all things that I wanted for,

I have all the friendships and family loves,

Even thought a stranger can treat me well,

Unfortunately that I never found my love.

Isn't it so difficult to discover your true loves?

They said I got the loves but I don't want to accept.

Same question:Would you accept someone you don't really obsessed with?

Anyway,satisfying or satisfied to my life?Idk!

The day once you broke my heart,
I will never be same like before,
The days you tear me down,
I had changed to be a strong man.

You just have nothing to me anymore,
Darn the stupidness I have done to you,
But now we're no more any relation,
Don't think you can tear me down again!

Now I stand on the skyscraper,
You can't take anything from me anymore,
Don't trying to break me again,
Cause I'm strong enough to stand on the top!

Trying to be outstanding and brave,
But just realized that not anyone will like your special,
Run on the road that have been taken,
To find a place to take a small rest.

Lonely isn't for a people who hasn't a lover,
It defines as nothing to do with anyone,
When we get bored,we easily feel lonely,
And you will just start thinking something creepy!

Letting go someone who doesn't love you anymore,
Because it's not worth for you to love someone who doesn't love you,
Love the one who loves you,
There have no fairytale or miracle in love.

Deal with yourself

Have been experienced lot of things,
Things that wouldn't know by anyone,
Sometimes I just wish life will be going smooth,
But sometimes I'm just too innocent to think.

Are you single now?
Know what?I always on this situation.
Seriously I did longing to some kind of love,
It doesn't need to be romantic and beautiful but simple.

Are you okay?
I've been suffocated in this question!
It's not for me but for you,
But I know it wouldn't be like before.

People who're trying to forget always be the one,
The one who never forget easily,
We can take it as a dream,
Why people just did it at difficult way?

Trying to be busy to remind me that I'm still alive,
Trying to be socialist to remind me that I'm always be fine,
Pretending that we are stranger,
Like you never come into my life.

I've been said that "I'm letting go" for many times,
But how difficulty to let something go?
But now I'm wide awake,
I clearly know that what should I do now!

God knows that what I'm paying for,
I don't really need to tell people what am I doing,
Because I know I have the right,
The right to stand out from falling down AGAIN.

Small little things to talk! :)

They think I'm childish,
But they've no idea why I'm so childish?
They think I'm crazy,
But they don't know why I'm being crazy?

They think I got all the happiness,
But they don't know how much I break my heart!
They think I got all the love,
But they don't know the one I care don't.

他们觉得我爱无理取闹,
但是他们却不懂我取闹的原因?
他们觉得我很爱热闹,
但是他们不懂其实我很矛盾。

他们觉得我会为小事而伤心,
但是却不懂我不是为了那小事而伤心。
他们觉得我很难了解,
但是他们却不懂我自己也不了解自己。

They don't know the times after spending with them,
I smile from my heart sincerely!
They don't know a small little thing,
Can even cheer me up for whole day!

They don't know I don't like to alone,
But I always keep me lonely,
Because I'm afraid I can't stand without friends,
I'm afraid I can't be more independent after friends!

我其实很倔强,
我宁愿自己一个人痛苦,
也不需要别人的怜悯,
但这不是在于尊严的问题。

我很容易放弃,
因为失败一次自信就被抛夺了一次,
最后剩下的可能是赤裸裸的自己,
我容易放弃但却不轻易认输!

Never expect someone will love me more,
But at least don't fool with my feeling,
Cause you know what?
I'm easy to get hurt by FRIENDSHIPS!

Please appreciate my care,
Because I'm not pretend to care about you,
I'm just treating you all as a friend,
Because I know it's worth for me to do that!

也许我很清楚的明白已回不去
但是我只希望以后的日子,
会活得比以前更精彩更快乐,
其他的我真的不奢望太多。

我讨厌别人怜悯我,
我讨厌别人看不起我,
我讨厌别人抛弃我一个人，
但是最后我选择原谅!

Because there's no revenge anymore,
I choose to forgive,
Because I will live out of my past,
I am who I am now!The new one! :)

发泄...

我努力地前进,

我努力地变得不一样,

但是我却被一次次的失败,
很刺痛地打在我的身上。

老实说我真的不喜欢认输,
但是我总是不断地认输,
因为我选择认输也不愿失去,
失去那值得我认输的事情!

没有人懂得,
我曾被残忍的结局,
狠狠地伤了多少次?
但我选择把它藏在心里。

我很恨努力却失败的自己,
他为了努力而变得特别,
也因特别却融不进任何人,
然而没人知道他心里是多么的孤单!

习惯把自己伤口当笑话的我,
其实有没有人懂得?
在我微笑的脸上其实...
我埋藏了多少的刺痛与悲伤?

我很努力地融入别人的世界,
我选择因为环境而改变,
最后我原来才发现,
我在许多人眼中只是个多出的物品。

其实心里是多么地伤心,
想要到无人的岛屿大声地喊出来!
很想要找一天把一切都抛开,
很想要一个人静一静!

最近其实情绪很不稳定,
但是我却勉强地挤出笑容,
但是我发现有时候我还是控制不住自己的情绪,
所以当我心情不好的时候,
就会假借"想睡觉"的借口来掩饰。

我不懂自己能掩饰多少,
但是我告诉我自己,
只要我还撑得住的一天,
我还会是大家眼中那没烦恼的小孩!

我把自己搞得很幼稚,
不是我真的长不大,
是种选择不想懂太多事情的借口,
是种选择让自己开心的抉择!

(*朋友,如果你看了这篇文章请别到处说我的事情,我也不想公开给大家看,所以我顺其自然,如果你看到的话就装作看不到吧!)

Creepy

Here am I again,the old of me,
I get the choice to choose what I want,
I get the freedom to let in someone,
I look childish apparently!

Thought I was a good friend,
Thought I was a damn happy Mr.Optimistic,
Thought I can done everything I want,
But all those are only my highly self-esteem!

Sometimes I thought I was helping a friend,
But I'm actually the one disturbing their life,
Sometimes I thought I was being a fun for them,
But I'm actually the one being so annoying to them.

I'm being indifferent for every newfeeds,
But it doesn't mean I'm trying to protest anything,
I'm just trying to do something mean to me,
Not for anyone,should letting troubles go!

Dear my friends,
I'm actually care how you actually think about me,
Because you're just a part of my life,
I do not need to tell you this,
But I want to bury my aspirations here.

I don't mean to change anyone,
I'm just want to be awesome like others,
I always wanna to be an amazing person,
Cause I know one day...it would be real.

I'm proving it for myself,
I'm clearly to know that,
Miracle is something you should discover yourself,
It doesn't happening without any reason.

Dear friends,something I never tell them,
I'm just afraid who will be the traitor again,
So I keeping it deep inside my heart,
I'm going to crazy if the secret really find out.

I believe we have an angel and evil inside the heart,
When your angel are tiring to everything,
The evil will coming out and take away angel's job,
And it keeps you away from the smile.

Last,I've no idea what I wanted to deliver in this post,
Anyway,see it as a pleasure if you like it,
And then,I would be very happy to see any feedback,
You are the one who builds me again!

Songs,know it all!

I'm not Adele,
I won't find someone like you,
And use it to hurt myself again,
And "set fire to the rain"!

I will be Jessie J,
Watching out "Who's laughing now",
And don't be shamed to be special,
And "Who you are"?

"What doesn't kill you" make you stronger,
You will be taught by Kelly Clarkson,
But "My life wouldn't be suck without you",
And I will be "Mr.Know It All" one day!

For sure I'm a teenager,
I know "What makes you beautiful",
"One thing" that I never told you,
But please,it's too late to "Apologize"!

Yeah!We've "Teenage dream",
"Last Friday night" we all are crazy,
But don't you know that it's "just a dream"?
And please don't take away from me,it's "Part of me"!

Now you're just "somebody that I used to know",
Cause I know it's "terrifying"!
So I don't have to say you are "The one that got away"!
Cause "We are young" right?

You are like "Skyscraper",
You are so high yet so beautiful!
So I must "Get it right"!
So that we will be "Safe and sound"!

You think "I will always love you"?
No way!"My heart will go on"!
Because I know I'm already "Come home"!
I'm "Glad you came" but not now!

Happiness?Love?

What is happiness?
It always be there,don't you feel it?
Some small matters can let you feel happy,
It is a kind of happiness.

Happiness came from love,
When you are giving out love,
I sure you can receive back your love,
With two times,three even four times!

Love is just a simple matter,
You make a donation,
Feel happy when chit chat with your friends,
Thinking all those happy stuff in your mind,
You are giving the love all around you.

What is the measure of love?
Measure of love is love without measure,
So don't think how much you gave,
Cause you will receive all you have given,
This is reflection,so give love now!

孤独,是自己美丽的诗句

一场忽然到来的大雨,
淋湿了心里压抑已久的寂寞,
唤醒了曾经觉得错的想法,
反而否认了那曾经你坚持对的事情!

有些事情我们习以为惯,
忽略那事情的重要性,
反而不重要的我们却斤斤计较挑麻烦,
我们都把视线放得太过宽,
反而太靠近的事情我们都已经麻木看不见了！

孤独,是首非常悲哀又美丽的诗,
别人都不了解这诗句是多么的特别,
但是你自己却很了解它的美,
总结,孤独是自己美丽的诗句!

有时候老掉牙的爱情故事,
却能深深地被那爱情感动,
有可能是因为那是你似曾相识的爱情,
被伤害的心就算痊愈了,
但那刀疤(回忆)却让你残忍地让你记得!

最后送上一首歌,希望大家都能幸福! :)

感触

回忆,就像一本相册,
里面装满了许多的回忆,
包含着酸甜苦辣,
还有许多难忘的经历!

人生,是本非常厚的故事书,
里面有许多莫名其妙的故事,
许多阴差阳错的爱情,
还有许多友情的证明!

时间,是个超现实的老师,
拿着藤条促使着我们成长,
教着我们如何变得更成熟,
不停地修着许多新的科目.

爱情,是门人生必修课,
教着我们如何去幸福,
学着爱情难懂的方程式,
研究着如何维持直到永远.

梦想,是种调味品,
给苦涩的咖啡(人生）加了糖,
是未来的导火线,
消除乏味生活的解药.

生活,是本还没开始的曲谱,
每个人是自己的谱曲者,
你创造自己属于自己的音乐,
你写着属于自己的人生.

经验,是本万能的百科全书,
是我们迷惑时的必需品,
是个成熟的源泉,
是个让人变得完美的物品.

年轻,是每个人都会有的奢侈品,
是准备上战场的训练场,
是享受时光的资本,
你,曾经拥有?还是你拥有着?

L.O.V.E.

You have a bad day,
When you falling in love with someone.
You have to be more mature,
When a relationship has begun.

Our love begun with sweetness,
At least 13 calls and 100 messages per day,
I used my sleeping time to chat with you,
I do what you want and give what you want.

When you are falling in love with someone,
You will never be afraid how people think about you.
When you are falling in love with someone,
You won't be attracted from others cause you love her.

Time contracts,she gonna leave here,
She is going somewhere far away from my distance,
She is leaving here for her future,
I can't be selfish,I should let go her.
Because I LOVE YOU.

After a few weeks,
We are less contact than the previous time,
I expect at least two calls from you one day,
But it sounds like impossible.

I always message you,
And tell you how much I love you,
But at last you never reply me,
I will starting to worry about you.

I gave you the freedom,
You are exactly same as me,
Wanna to find a balance between friends and you.
I know it gonna be a tough life soon.

Distance love may not as easy as what I think,
Distance love maybe suffocated,
But what to do?I gonna miss you.

You are my girlfriend,
I will holding your hand until the end of world,
I will keep you happy always,
I will always choose you first!

You know I'm willing to sacrifice myself,
What I have to do is just make you happy,
Cause I love you so much,
Nothing can break us apart I believe!

Never expected that you treat me as a same way,
If one day you are not love me anymore,
I promise I will set you free,
I just want you to be happy,
Nothing is worth than that.

You came my life,
Changed my faith,
You cheered me up,
No matter how I will always love you!

"Hunger" fever?

Turn on your speaker and shuffle this song,
While you are watching what I gonna to write down here,
It's about my imagination,
I've a very creative imagination now.

Going out with your boy/girlfriends one day,
You have been kidnapped by someone,
And you go into a mysterious place,
Have around 100 more people like you inside there.

Each of a boy and girl will be selected for a game,
You've to survive in that game in future,
Hunger game,a game you should win all your rival,
And you only can survive from that game.

Unfortunately,you and your girl/boyfriends have been selected,
What will you do the rest?
You choose to be survive or died to save your boy/girlfriends,
No two people are allowed on that game.

Well,all those imagination came out,
I think I gonna having a crazy night tonight,
Anyway,hope you enjoy my blog,
It's a coming movie called "The Hunger Games".

T.G.I.F.

Well,it's Friday,
Party day and I hide myself,
In front of my lovely computer,
And watching Glee and Immortals,
As well will continue Vampire diaries soon.

I think I'm crazy,
Figure lot of things after watching any show,
Erm...maybe just envy?Haha!
For sure I wish I have six abs like them.

Question:
Do six abs change how people think about a man?
Well,I think no one dislike muscle guy right?
Hell,I should start working out!
Then I won't forever alone! XD

I believe one day,
I can solve all the love question,
Because you know what?
I know all those love although I never love.

Erm.Maybe it's just a theory?
Never mine,I believe my perfect practical,
Will coming out one day,
And people will seeing it.

=)

Valentine day?Joking?
It's still the same,
Nothing change to me,
I mean love.

Whao~I'm 19,
It's quite old already,
But love,
Always hit nothing to me!

It's raining outside there,
It makes me feel like...emotional?
Well,it's quite normal for me,
But I just don't any friends to know.

Love,people always talking about that in my age,
Puppy love,it considers as past tense for my age?
Well,I laugh on myself,
What's the taste of puppy love?

Maybe I'm being too ignorance?
I've no idea cause I've tried to improve my social work,
And I've no idea cause no one gives me a feedback.
I'm just want to be a normal guy like others.

Why does a handsome get a girl so easily?
And then the uglier like me like no one interest,
I wish I was a nice looking guy very badly,
Handsome has a lot of benefit as what I friends said.

Never mine,I born in this way,
So that I should live out myself in this way,
Don't be afraid to fall,
But be afraid when you do nothing.

Growth

When we were young,
We had a dream and we speak more than do,
But when we really growing up,
Only realized that dream...
Isn't easy to success.

I may saying that I wanna be a doctor,
But do really easy to be a doctor?
Of course no,cause you have to hold on that,
And sacrifice something to success.

Yea,I had a nice dream in childhood.
I dream to be a actor or model,
But when I growth up,
Just realized that how difficult to success your dream.

Yea,it's dream not real,
And I found something quite real to me,
That's:I wanna to be an air-steward,
As I said:Dream ain't easy to success,
Family banned and I have to abandoned my sweet dream.

So I find another aim for myself,
That's:I wanna be a Public Relation!
I never know whether that will success or not?
But I'm still keep chasing!

What I wanna to say is:
Dream isn't easy to chase,
When something doesn't belong to you,
Just take it off and find something new,
If you don't get the moon,you still heading for the star!
Hold on that everyone!

Dear blogger:

Sometimes I really hate it,
If you don't really want to be friend,
Please stop caring me since early,
You are just ignore me after the shit!

The day we met,I'm so happy,
You make my day and I laugh like a kid,
I admit that I just crushed on you although,
We just met for few days.

I keep my feeling,
Just like a friend talk whatever with you,
But I don't know whether since when,
You are just piss me off and you're just disappeared!

Hell!I pretend everything,
Just wanted to maintain our friendship,
But I really can't believe that,
You kick my ass off your world!

Why God treat me in that way?
This is the one that I have special feeling,
And the feeling is never occur before!
But I was so disappointed that you're gone!

I do sad actually but what can I do?
I just can let go and I believe that,
Time will bringing me to a new life.
I believe I can forget those things!

I cut my hair,change my attitude,
I get involve in any activity,
I try to concentrate to study,
Maybe you think I'm enigmatic?