Letter for God

Dear God,I was a little confusing now,
I wish someone could help me go through this,
I totally mess up the beautiful of the friendship,
Due to my overthinking,desire and sensitive humanity!

I don't know what to do,
And I don't know how to solve the problem,
I'm alone with my own arms and strength,
Haiz,can anyone teach me what to do?

Life is cruel huh?
Sometimes you must grow up yourself,
In a very tough and difficult situation,
And there's no one going to help you up.

God,how suffering I am,you know that?
I feel like almost kill myself with all the problem,
And I'm the only one who could help me to overcome this,
So I must calm down and take some music!

Oh damn,I really feel so frustrated with all this things,
And I believe my friends might think I'm very annoying now.
Time goes days end,
I just really don't know what to do now?

Genting,parents,friends and relationship,
And the problem just happening again and again,
God,please look up for me,
Bless me everything will be fine.

Hey hater! :)

I was a little angry and sad tonight,
Just because I saw something happened,
And it exactly happened as what I expected,
Alright,thanks for ruining my mood kid!

I admit that sometimes I was a little ego and selfish,
If you really cannot accept the so called me,
You can just ignore me like man,
Don't like a coward who's wearing your damn fake mask,
Acting like a really kind man and you know what?
You are really disgusting you damn crocodile face!

Screw you,I don't actually like to hate my friend,
Unless you really make something that really blow me up,
You are extraordinary huh?
You can really beat my so called alien higher EQ,congratz!

Guess what?I never truly believe you again,
Since the day you are being so annoying to me,
And still being like an angel in front my friend,ewww~
Don't worry you little kitty,I'll never say it out,
I'll let them figure it themselves.

One day,your personality and attitude will shown up,
Because you are dealing with someone wrong,
Know what?I'm actually good in exposed people,
And I'll make sure you will be the same as the other.

I'm an evil right?
If you said that,what are they?
They are even like a monster,
Which can hide themselves like a kind people,
And actually being so annoying after them.

Well,good luck for you.
And I gonna say:Fuck you!

Letting go,the last thing suppose to do?

I know I'm actually like an idiot,
I'm just like an idiot,
Keep searching your past,
For just wanted to understand you more.

Is that really "nice guy end up at last"?
That's such a good theory to investigate for.
Seriously,I just don't feel right.
I just hate being so invisible in front of you.

Am I really nothing worth for you at all?
Even friendship also is nothing for you?
What do you want from me?
I don't really know how to fix this shit!

Is that really if we try,try and try...
We gonna success at the last?
Is that really just a matter of time?
What if we never met before?
Then everything will be as usual as before.

I'm laughing cause I really like an idiot,
Did so much idiot thingy in front of you,
You happy right?See me being so crazy.
Fun right?Kill myself to make you smile.

I actually believe in miracle,
I actually met miracle at last ALWAYS,
But you are just the one that I don't feel like...
Every miracle will be happening on us...

Letting go,is that really the thing I supposed to do?
No please,I've been tried,
But I just never success. :'(

Internet is something very realistic,
We heart talk without a real name,
We pretend everything with a real name,
This is something always happening on us.

I'm so sorry that I loved you

Are you just kidding me?
I laughed and mocked to myself.
Seriously?Had mood swing because of a dream?
I just realized that how much you can influence me.

So happy that you've been in my dream,
We're chatting and enjoying the time,
You're still like the past,so beautiful and charming,
And the dream was so surreal,
I can't actually move out from that dream.

When I was actually woke up that time,
Damn,I'm starting to miss the one..
The one that I said I will letting go.
And the truth that,you'll never ever love me back.

I don't know what should I do now?
Because I can't even maintain our friendship,
I thought I was the one you already accepted in,
But I just realized that you never...
I'm nothing mean to you at ALL!

I don't know,I can't think further,
I've no dare to think more as well,
Because I'm afraid that I can't handle it,
I'm not a man,I'm just a BOY!

God,I'm so tired,
Why I don't deserve anyone?
What's going on to me?
What should I do to make myself become someone..
Someone who deserve to be loved?

Dear You

You drive me crazy with your indifferent,

I go mad because of how I fall for you,

I get jealous when you so good with someone but not me,

I cry without tears and shout without voice.

I used up my whole attitude to be your friend,

Without any humiliation,sanctity and even my limitation.

I have a "3 minutes" of bad attitude,

But you're like a miracle that totally break this rule.

My vision getting blur when I think about you,

My fall everytime even you only say a "Hi",

Your smile can even keep my smile for whole day,

You don't even know your message can even make my day.

I'm fucking tired for being so care about your life,

I hate how I used to be missing you every night,

I hate how you ruin my schedule with only a word,

I hate how you treat me so well and nothing for the next second.

I fail to tell you that I love you,

I still keep and hold on your love,

Even though I know you will never ever love me back,

The feeling is so strange to me.

The worst thing ever is when I pretend like nothing,

I'm like a very strong people in front of you,

You never see how lonely I am,

Because you are the one that make me not alone.

Can't you just give me a little bit of love?

I'm not that greedy that I want all of your love,

But at least just give me some attention please.

I love you more than what I love myself now. =(

I'm so confusing when I said I wanna letting go,

But I never let you go because I can't do that,

You're so mean like how you treat me,

I hate how you influence my mood!

Dear God,I need you.I'm so in love with that person.

Can you give me a hint whether should I continue to love?

I'm....just fucked up myself! =(

Confession of broken heart

Today might be a very sad day for me,
Because this is my last schooling day with friends.
I'm so sad when I think about them,
But we still have to move on!

I'm so sad when we're talking about the first met,
How we get used to know each other,
Hugging each other made me so brokenhearted,
I'm love them so so so so so so much!

They are the one who gave me a lot of memories,
We used to watch the procession under the rain,
We used to laugh on each other,
We used to mock each other with our words.
We used to sing together,
We used to playing around the class each other,
We used to solve question together,
We used to sleep at class together,
We used to gossip together,
We used to have the party every celebration,
We used to eat at class,
We used to listen song at class
We used to....

And it gonna be my own memories,
We'll going to different country,place and future,
But I'm still not letting go yet,
I'm like crying when I think about them every single moment.

My friend cried and don't losing us,
We are not prepared to face the world yet,
Please,I beg to the God,
Please give us more time to be together.

I don't what will be going on my next life,
Because I though it would be a sweet memory ever in secondary,
But still my friends just broke it,
And taught me what's the real friendship!

They taught me not to be pessimist,
They taught me how to handle my own depression,
We shared secrets each other,
They taught me how to face the world,
They taught me how to love a person,
They taught me how to be kind,
And taught me how to be mature,
Seriously,I don't wanna lose them!

Friends,don't leave me alone,
I don't know what's the future,
But at least,I got an awesome "present",
This is the best thing ever I had.

Love you guys!

We joy while we are together,

We sad due to the bad result,

We love and care each other,

We used to eat during the lesson.

We enjoyed about one and half year,

And still,we reach the time...

That we have to say goodbye to each other.

And now,we have no much time to be together.

Seriously,I've been sad when I think about this,

They taught me a lot of things that I never learn,

I learned to be strong,rational and mature,

I learned to appreciate and love my friendship.

It's all turning back now,

We're back to the beginning again.

I hold on my tears when I feel like leaving,

Because I prefer smile to say goodbye! :)

I gotta have a new life in Genting,

Never know what's the new thing will be discover,

I have no dare to say I miss you,

I'm not a coward but just to be more strong in front them.

I love you,my friends,

I don't know whether how you think about me,

But I have to say that I really love you all,

It gonna be a hard time for me to get a new start again.

Few more days that I'll be with my friends,

After that we have no more class together,

But I have to say that,

My class is a really awesome class!

I gonna miss how I disturb my deskmate during lesson,

He'll do nothing and feel speechless for my action,

He always responeless only for me,bad guy!

Anyway,I gonna miss him soon.

I gonna miss how the other deskmate keep shooting us,

He's just like a machine gun,

Keep shooting everyone in class but I have to say that,

He is a very kind and nice person and I gonna miss him soon,

I gonna miss how I used to sing with my old deskmate,

Our first met in office and she's just a very passionate girl,

She doesn't know Chinese but she can speak Chinese well,

Damn,she is a very funny girl and I gonna miss,

How she laughs,smiles and sings.

Bieber's gf,my first thought that she'll be a fierce girl,

But I never know that she is really a sweet girl,

Who always feel so shy but she's a crazy girl,

I gonna miss how she laughs as well and her epic serious face.

There have so much memories in PU2-MT,

I really can't stand when I think that I gonna lose them,

We form a big family,a link and heart-to-heart.

I love you all,goodbye! :(